Are you careful in your conversations with family and peers who are quick to judge if you fail to meet their beliefs? Do you hope that you will have total freedom to say whatever you want and do whatever you want without being cast out? Unfortunately, your voice will be indefinitely shuttered if you continue playing their game to stay in their good graces.
But make no mistake, speaking up for yourself even one time will create a fierce backlash from those who are supposed to love and value you. They will devalue and discard you in a heartbeat unless you apologize for breaking protocol. Alpha (power and control motivated) people have no patience for changes in the pecking order of their social systems.